Speechless

After a long time today, this silence has moved me. I don't know what is it, the quiet summer day outside or the sound of the birds chirping through the windows or something inside me that has moved me to this introspection. Whatever it is,I feel deeply moved,so much so that I am overwhelmed, close to tears of thankfulness and in bewilderment at the folding events. It is so strange; seemingly I have been moving in no direction whatsoever for the past few years and yet there are patterns that have made me move forward and come to where I am now.It can be no other thing than fate; it can be God only who has put some sense in all of this randomness.
I remember writing a post about life two years back, about how life seems to be unfair but God isn't,about how life makes you come to a point when it makes you see it has given everything back to you what it once  took from you.I am at such a point in my life. Whatever fears I had have been taken away, whatever I thought impossible has happened,prayers have been answered and wishes have come true,all when I had lost all hope. How great is God!
These ramblings may make no sense to any one but I know no other way to express something that I am feeling so intensely. I am so much in awe of what I have witnessed in life recently that it has somehow increased my faith, proved to me what I had always believed, that there is a God and He answers prayers and He is the Healer.
 I don't know how I can say thank you to ALLAH. I know I fail God daily but He has never failed me. Right now,I just have this heartfelt emotion and this deep wish of being blessed further.
Maybe I am just writing to let my feelings flow, to share when I can talk with no one.Maybe it's this loneliness right now that has compelled me to write today after so many months. I feel it much more today when there is no one I could share with; this silence has made me realize things I didn't have time to think of before.

Maybe I just want to tell that there s a method to this madness called life. Whatever it is, it doesn't mean I have understood it.I still feel like moving in circles, I still have got no clue to the mystery of life, I still am directionless, I fear for what is going to happen. I don't know lots of things but I have learned to trust God.His mercy overrides His anger. Aur tum apnay Rab ki kaun kaun si Naimaton ko jhutlao gay.

Faroha Liaqat
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